houston, we have lift off. ;)

I finally finished it, the poem that has been alluding me since February. :) It's about vertigo and rising above circumstance and living your life despite it. I sort of combined Houdini and a phrase from Faith of the Fallen by Terry Goodkind. Very inspirational, it is.

Also got 611 words on Survivor. I now have the poor lover of the MC's hubby moving in with them. This will be alot of fun, and should lead to betrayal and all sorts of fun things. :)

plausibility.

A family friend and I were discussing my novel Survivor. Angela is also a psychologist and asked about how I am portraying DID in the book. And she told me some general things, most of it I knew through my own research, and I asked her a few questions. Well, I am wondering if what I'm doing is plausible. While this is fiction, it takes place in our world, in our time, and I wanted it to be as realistic as possible. I'm just not sure. I mean I think with certain aspects I've nailed it, but there are a few that are alluding me. So, it's off to do more research.

I may end up talking to a co-worker of hers who's a writer and who has treated people with DID. I'm really hoping I can.

Otherwise, things are coming along.

733 on Survivor.

I've finished Nancy's and the evil doctor's storyline for now. I'm going to be working on Anna's storyline - Rick is the protagonist's husband. Anna is his lover. She has some secrets in her past that she's fighting, as well as for his attention.

Went pretty well -a bit stilted, but I enjoy writing fast and furious. I try not to edit anything too much or disturb the flow. Taking a page from Holly Lisle's book, I put on my hubby's newly burned Dokken CD and went to it. Music always makes things so much clearer, and easier. When I was a kid, I used to do homework to music. The only thing I couldn't do with music is study.

I remember when my senior year boyfriend dumped me for another girl. I put Led Zeppelin on - the loudest possible and just let it surround me. I am the daughter of a bass player, after all, and a drummer myself, although back then I had no idea of that. Funny how 10 years, give or take a few, changes you.

tough scene today.

I wrote- and rewrote-the scene where the evil doctor and protag's mother torture a poor nurse for information. The nurse helped the protag escape but refuses to tell them anything. And it gets ugly. And bloody.

I haven't written many torture scenes. I suspect it still may need some work, but my stomach is queasy and I have a steel stomach, if that says anything.

A sampling:


The girl’s face had swollen and blood covered most of it. The final cut still oozed blood, like a river, it coursed downward and saturated the sheets.

Donna whimpered and fought, until her medication took effect.

Dr. Frankoni pressed a mirror into her fist. She refused to open her eyes.

“What, don’t you want to see our masterpiece?” He chuckled. “Fine. Have it your way.” He pulled one eyelid open, and quickly severed it, so fast, she didn’t know what had hit her. Then she screamed. And screamed.

Elizabeth forced her to look at herself in the mirror.

She cried. She screamed. She thrashed around against her restraints.

They calmly watched her from afar, until she’d burned all of her energy and slumped back, still as stone, still bleeding, one eye open for all eternity. She wouldn’t forget. She couldn’t possibly.

She inhaled. “I won’t tell you anything,” she whispered into the silence. “You are monsters and you will pay. Somehow, I’ll make you pay.”

She looked down at her restrained hands, unable to cover her bleeding, tear filled eyes.

“You will pay.”

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Loving this.

771 so far!

I was able to sneak in some words on Survivor after Bossman left for lunch. ;) It's pretty intense right now- The protag's mother and doctor (who are up to no good) just found out that the protag has mysteriously disappeared. And of course, the little experiment is in severe jeopardy. I'm liking it.

Also had some ideas last night, in the shower, as usual, for another vamp book for my series. The protagonist's name finally came to me - Mere. I couldn't find a name to stick right till then. So I'm geeked about that. I want to write a book about the secret guard society of my vampire royalty in Eternal Dance - Mere in particular. Ideas are taking shape as we speak.

As David says in Vanilly Sky, "I'm living the dream, living the dream."

beginnings......

Well, this is my very first entry. This blog will be mainly my writing blog where I will track my progress on my WIPs, sometimes posting snippets from time to time. Parts of my other world may seep in occasionally.

I'm a writer and photographer. I love all things dark and gothic. I've always been enthralled by darkness and what lurks beneath the surface. My fine art photography is very different, very in-your-face and usually bizarre. I love Photoshop and Photo Montaging. I teach classes in photography at our local college. Also took 2 years towards a degree in Art with a specialty in photography. Someday, I'd like to finish it.

Works in Progress

Survivor - main WIP at the moment. First draft, 3/4's done. It's a psychological horror about a young woman with dissociative identity disorder. It's for a class I'm taking at Forward Motion. You learn how to write a book from the idea all the way to submission, taking two years. We're in the second year now.

Eternal Dance - secondary WIP. Third draft/first edit status. Dark fantasy about two women with linked fates, a triple murder, a vampire possessing a young woman, prophecy, love and the fate of the world. It was my first NaNoWriMo project ever in 2003, and I finished it with
50, 1010 words. I am very excited about this because it's my first fantasy ever.

I'll prolly talk about Terry Goodkind from time to time. Not only does he have an amazing series (Sword of Truth) but his books are inspiring to my personally and inspirational to me as a writer. Reading his Wizard's First Rule is what inspired me to change the focus of ED from just a vampire/horror novel to dark fantasy. If you haven't read his books, I highly recommend them.

I also have a number of books planned to make this a series ..... if I get it published and all that. ;) My goal is to have something out to an agent or publisher THIS YEAR.

I also write poetry and have been since I was 11. Been published in a number of literay mags; however, I'm looking towards writing a few chapbooks.

Life as a Moving Target - my brainchild from last year after being diagnosed with fibromyalgia and intractable vertigo (constant vertigo from unknown cause). I started off with one poem, and in months, I had enough to try to get it published as a collection. No luck yet but I will never stop trying, b/c the world needs to be made aware of these illnesses and the people who struggle with them.

Love Letters - Since my speciality is love poetry (not rhymed, not Hallmark-y either!), I decided to put together a collection as a "love letter" to everyone who's ever impacted my life, particularly men. That's still in progress as we speak.


Oh, what else? I'm hard at work at creating two Tarot decks. Actually, three now, since I have yet another concept, but anyhoo. I love the Tarot and have been reading the cards since I was 16. I own close to 30 decks, thanks to my very generous sister who feeds my addiction. The three decks I'm working on are very unique and powerful for me personally. More on that later.
I will prolly post pictures here from time to time.

So do you think you know me?

We shall see. ;)

self-portait, late 2004